"Jõehobu elutoas" Tommy Helsten

Päris lasteraamat see ikkagi pole , mida hetkel loen.

Lähisõltuvus (LS)(kaassõltuvus) fookusega alkohoolikute täiskasvanud lapsed

Mis on LS oleva isiku tunnused?

1. Orienteerumine väljapoole- Inimene on õppinud sobituma kellegiga enesest väljaspool, selle asemel , et tema mõtteid ja tegusid juhiksid tema enda tunded, mõtted ja vajadused. Selline inimene tajub hästi oma keskkonna moodustavate inimeste vajadusi- tundub et ta eksisteeriks vaid teiste jaoks. Kui koguneb grupp inimesi, suudab LS- isik tajuda ja rahuldada nende vajadusi. Kui keegi on vihane, siis tuleb tõsta tema tuju. Kõigil peab olema hea olla, kellelgi ei tohi halb olla. Väljapoole orienteeruv inimene lähtub kaasinimestest, mitte iseendast- see on kunst, mille ta on omandanud kooselust jõehobusega. Ta teab, et ellujäämise tagatis on oskus säilitada rahu jõehobusega.
2. Kontroll- Niisugustel inimestel on vältimatu vajadus kontrollida oma tundeid, teisi inimesi, elu tervikuna. Otsus kõike kontrollida valmib lapses siis , kui ta tajub, et ei saa kedagi usaldada. turvalisust pole võimalik kelleltki saada ja seepärast tuleb see iseendale luua, kontrollides ja valitsedes kõike ümbritsevat. Kõik see, mis ei allu kontrollile , on hirmutav. Hirmu äratavad eelkõige tunded, sest need arenevad oma reeglite järgi, allumata kontrollile. Kontrolliv inimene taotleb juhipositsiooni, võim on talle magnetiks. Niisuguse oma elu üle valitseva inimese kohta võib öelda, et ta on haigestunud enda tugevusse. Sellised inimesed teavad kõike, oskavad kõike, haldavad kõike. Me kohtame neid seal, kus on võimalik turvata ja aidata teisi.
3. Võimetus usaldada teisi- Usaldamatus juhib eristumisele. Kui pole usaldust teiste inimeste vastu, on võimatu lähedust kogeda. Tihti on nõnda, et LS-i isik ei teagi, mida tähendavad usaldus ja lähedus: need mõisted puuduvad tema kogemuste maailmas.
4. Nõrk minatunnetus- Sageli võib LS-isikult kuulda, et ta ei tea õieti isegi, kes ta on.
5. Sundtegutsemine- Ta ei ole enam human being vaid human doing. Säärasel inimesel on alati kiire, kuigi ta ei tea, kuhu ta tõttab. Ta ei tea seda, sest puudub aeg seisatada ja järele mõelda. Eksiteel aga ollakse siis, kui elamine mattub tegutsemise alla ja tegemist peetakse ekslikult elamiseks. Elu ei tähenda sooritust , vaid elamist.
6. Ülitõsidus- Elu on tõsine. Nõnda mõtleb inimene, kelle peaülesanne on eksistentsi säilitamine, liikudes ühest kriisist teise. Sellise inimese normaalse elu juurde kuulub pidev vaevanägemine ning kergendust pakub olukord, mil pole põhjust paanikaks. Tõsise inimese üks joon on samuti võimetus võtta vastu teiste toetus. Ülitõsine inimene võib tajuda teiste inimeste vajadust toetuse järele ning seda ise pakkuda; selle vastuvõtmine aga kujutab endast ületamatut probleemi. Valesse sugupõlve kuulumine- laps-perekonna-psühhiaatrid.
7. Haigestumised- Tunnetega näib liituvat sarnane sümboolika nagu unenägudega. Mõnikord riietuvad nad kujutlusse, mis korduvad inimese enda tahte vastaselt. Lootusetusetunne võib väljenduda kujutluses auto ette hüppamises. Tihti hoiab niisuguste kujutluste all kannatav inimene paaniliselt teeservast kaugemale. Kui inimene ei suuda endale võimaldada õigust olla nõrk, teeb organism seda tema asemel.

no vot siis.

STONE

Käisin täna seda filmi vaatamas kinos. Olin mitmest allikast kuulnud, et tegemist on igava filmiga, kuid seda kohe kindlasti mitte minu jaoks. Minu jaoks oli see võib-olla isegi liiga intensiivne- isegi praegu kodus ei suuda ma sellele mõtlemast lakata. Ja see on ootamatult tekitanud minus tahtmise kirjutada ning seda ma nüüd teengi. Kirjutan siia mõtteid ja arutlusi, mis mul filmi ajal peast läbi jooksid, samuti teel koju. Need ei ole kindlasti kõik mõtted ega ka kõige olulisemad. Kirjutan lihtsalt sellest , mis näppudest tuleb.

Alustan esimesest stseenist, mis ka pärast selle lõppemist päris kaua veel mu mõtetes ringi uitas. Ma mõtlesin armastusele. Mõtlesin sellele kui hävitav see võib ikka olla. Mis saab kui Sa teed vale otsuse, kui Sa valid vale kaaslase ja kui Sa oled nii nõrk, et Sa ei muuda seda valet mitte kunagi õigeks. Ja oma elu lõpuni eladki nii, õnnetult ja armastuseta. Armastus toob maailma suurima headuse, kuid nii tihti ka suurima kurjuse. Halb armastus tundub minu silmis omavat väge luua katkisi inimesi ja need katkised inimesed loovad üha enam ja enam katkisi inimesi juurde.

Siinkohal jõuame mõne teise mõtteni. See maailm meie ümber. Inimesed kes me oleme ja kelleks me saame. Kõik need peategelased olid üht või teist moodi täiesti "fucked up " ma ütleks. Mulle tunduksid nagu katkised ja väärastunud inimesed...samas...kas ma tahan seda uskuda või mitte, siis nad pole seda. Mis hälbest me räägime, kui enamus on vb sellised?Kui norm ongi selline. Ma olen viimasel ajal nii palju kokku puutunud valelikkuse ja manipulatsiooniga. Kuidas saab kedagi uskuda üldse ?Usaldada? Kuidas saab aga mitte usaldada? Kaua sa jõuad kedagi umbusaldada?

Ja mida kuradit peaks siin maailmas üldse uskuma?

Nojah, üldjoontes tõi film tõesti palju negatiivsust üles või õigemini äratas. Kõik need kahtlused ka minus endas. Muidugi, me kõik tunneme kedagi, kes tunneb kedagi, kes on õnnelik ja bläblä edasi. Aga kaua võib kuulata seda juttu, et maailm on tore ja ilus ja inimesed on toredad ja ilusad ja kunagi saabub ka õnn meie kõigi õuele...ärge selle jutu peale nüüd väga kurjaks ka saage, sest elu on andud põhjust jõuda mul selliste mõteteni ja eks filmist saadud mõtted ongi vaid peegeldused mu enda hirmudest ja mõtisklustest...

Vot

Tundisn lihtsalt, et tahan selle kõik kirja panna...

To Iulia, and anyone who might need sth like this someday:)

1. Think through everything thoroughly, but not obsessively. Go ahead and mull it over, as many times as necessary, within reason. Consider all the reasons you two broke up. Even if it sometimes seems as if there wasn't a good reason, there certainly was one - and probably more than one. Understand that you enjoyed being together for a while, but if the relationship was not what both you and your partner wanted for life, it would have ended eventually, no matter what. In this case, better sooner than later. Thinking about the reasons why it ended can make it much clearer to you that it takes two people to start a relationship, but just one discordant person is enough to end it. It may also help you avoid many missteps in the future if you can identify areas where you contributed to the demise of the relationship.2

2. Don't try to be so strong. Cry if you need to, scream if you want. Be in your pajamas the whole day. You've been hurt, there's nothing wrong with crying. As bad as it may make you feel at the time to be crying over your ex, you'll feel a lot better when you're done crying, however long that might take.

3. Keep your space. Even if you and your ex have decided to stay friends, break away completely from each other right after the breakup. This means not seeing each other, not being around his/her family members, no phone calls, no e-mails, no text messages, no Facebook and no IMs - not necessarily as a permanent measure, but until you feel that you can converse with him/her on a purely platonic level, without an ulterior motive (and yes, wanting to get back together counts as an ulterior motive). If he/she tries to convince you to see him/her, ask yourself honestly what the point would be. If you're reliving the past by seeing him/her, it's not hard to get caught up in the moment and it will be harder to let go again. You may have to have some contact in order to deal with the practical aspects of things like moving out, signing papers, etc., but try to limit this to what's absolutely necessary, and then keep such calls/meetings short and civil.5

4. Cope with the pain appropriately. It's okay to feel like you have messed up - acceptingresponsibility for your mistakes or shortcomings is healthy. On the other hand, you must also accept that you are a good person, and that you did your best and you're not the only one who made mistakes. Of course, a stage of denial is completely natural, but acceptance is the key to being able to start moving on.

5. Deal with the 'hate phase'. This is when you want to just scream because your rage feels boundless. The amount of anger you feel depends on how antagonistic the split was, the circumstances, and how long it took to make the final break. You may resent your ex for wasting your time. You may realize that the breakup was inevitable (hindsight will reveal clues you failed to notice at the time). You may even feel a lot of anger towards yourself, but let go of that feeling fast! It's a waste of time and energy to rip yourself apart over something you no longer have the power to change. There are so many positive things you can do with your emotions and energy. Although it may feel good to replace your feelings of love towards your ex with hate, this can still lead to complications and mixed emotions of love and hate which are never a good thing.

6. Talk to your friends. You want people around you who love you and who will help you feel good about yourself. Surrounding yourself with compassionate, supportive friends and family will help you see yourself as a worthwhile person, and you'll find it easier to get steady on your feet again with your loved ones around you in a comforting net. Spening your time around friends and happy people will make you happier, and it'll help you forget about your ex for the time being. But be wary of friends trying to connect you with another person right now, this is not what you need.8

7. Write all your feelings down. Write in a journal or try writing poems. The most important thing is to be absolutely honest and don't edit yourself as you go. One of the best results of writing it all down is that sometimes you will be amazed by a sudden insight that comes to you as you are pouring it all out onto paper. Patterns may become clearer, and as your grieving begins to lessen, you will find it so much easier to understand valuable life lessons from the whole experience if you've been writing your way through it. No relationship is ever a failure if you manage to learn something about yourself. Just because it didn't work out doesn't mean it wasn't a necessary part of your journey to becoming who you're meant to be.9

8. Make a list of reminders. One of the best tricks to help you stick to your resolve is to make a list of all the reasons your ex was not the one for you. Be ruthless and clear -- this is not the time to be forgiving. What you're doing is creating a picture for yourself that will call up an emotional response when you feel tempted to think that "maybe if you just did this or that, it would work out..." Write down what happened and how it made you feel, being clear about the things you never want to feel again. When you find yourself missing your ex in a weak moment, and think you might actually be getting too close to the telephone, get out this list, read it over a couple times, and then talk to yourself, "This is the truth of what it was like. Why would I want to go back and torture myself again?" If you're caught in a low-self-esteem trap, thinking you don't deserve better, imagine this happening to a friend of yours, and think what you would say to your friend: "Get as far away as you can! That relationship was no good for you!"10

9. Out with the old, in with the new. A breakup can signify a new beginning. Therefore, cleaning and organizing your personal space will leave you feeling refreshed and prepared for the new things to come. A mess can be overwhelming and depressing, and will just add to your stress level. The added bonus is that keeping busy with tidying your space doesn't require a lot of brain power, but does require just enough focus to keep you from recycling pain. Occupying yourself with such tasks designed to make your life better and easier will also occupy your mind enough to help you through the residual pain. Clean your room, get some new posters, clean up the icons on your PC desktop. As insignificant as cleaning up sounds, it'll make you feel better.

10. Remove memory triggers. There are all kinds of things that remind you of your ex - a song, a smell, a sound, a place. Once the grieving period has had some time to process, don't dwell on painful feelings or memories. There are probably things that are pushing your buttons without your conscious recognition. Try walking around each room in your house with a box and removing things that make your heart ache or your stomach turn. Really focus and look carefully. You may realize that the little blue bird-shaped box sitting on the mantel has become pretty invisible for the last couple years, but when you take a conscious look at it, you notice that every time you turn towards that corner of the room and it catches your eye, you feel a sharp little pain in your solar plexus. It can work wonders to clear your space of all these triggers. If you have a keepsake, such as a watch or piece of jewelry that was given to you by your ex, and it's a reminder of the good aspects of your relationship, there's nothing wrong with keeping such a thing, but for the time being, try putting it away for later, when you've given yourself some time and space. Put these reminders far away from you, such as in a box in a place you'll never go. Out of sight, out of mind.

11. Find happiness in other areas of your life. Whether that means spending time with your friends and family, signing up for that class you've always wanted to take, or reading every book on the New York Times bestseller list, remind yourself that a relationship is one part of life, but even when you are in one, there are personal pleasures that you can always enjoy on your own. Indulge in those things now. As they say, the best revenge is living well. Enjoy Being Single.13

12. Stay active. Exercise improves your mood and alleviates depression, and the distraction will help keep your mind off your situation. Go running outside, visit (or join) the gym, or just go for a walk, maybe with a friend, and think of releasing the anger or sadness with every

13. Let go. Understand that there is no benefit in holding on to heartache, regret, and hatred toward another person. Realize that although it is over, your relationship with that person was unique and special in a lot of ways. You can congratulate yourself for being brave enough to take a risk and fall in love, and encourage your heart that even though love didn't work out this time, there will be a next time.

14. Be Optimistic. Change your thinking; that will help change the way you feel. Soon enough you'll be feeling released and free, and ready to take on new challenges.

Iulia saatis mulle ühe oma sõbra kirjandi- täis küsimusi, ja mina tundsin küll end ära:)

Being 20-something.

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with
the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that
you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder
where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely
know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends
that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you
have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most
important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that
too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as
confused as you.
You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you
would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you
are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find
yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have
certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your
list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and
then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your
life.
You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy
and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that
the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do
but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such
damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent
enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but
love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because
you know that you aren't a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap.
Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.
You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with
your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a
decision.
You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for
yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just
like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are
in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to
figure this whole thing out.
GOOD LUCK TO ALL OF US!!

Samuti saatis Iulia ka ühe huvitava kodulehekülje- http://www.ted.com/ . siin on igast 20minutilisi loengusi igast huvitavatel ja mõtlemapanevatel teemadel:)

härrale.

Kord aastas kui lootus kaob,

ja südames jällegi on vaod.

Sa tunned, et tühine on pingutus

värskuseta on ringitus

Su ähvardused avavad haavad mu sees

oled julm ja hoolimatu mees

Sõnad nii "muret täis" mu kõrvu kriibivad

pisarad- need vaid hetkeks viivitavad

Ja silmad, need rohelised ja varjamata

ainukesena tõtt ei jäta rääkimata

seest vaikib suu, ja sõnu ei kuule

ometigi ei mõtle ma millelegi muule...

finding feeling...

Kell on 8.04. Olen juba tunnikese üleval olnud- kohvi joonud ja oma bakalaureust kirjutanud. Caitlinit, Otti ja Marit kuulanud. Mõnus mõnus nädal on olnud. Töö on lihtsalt nii hea, põnev ja inspireeriv. Kool on arendav. Inimesed (need õiged) on südant soojendavad ja elu on ikka lill.

Ja nädal pole isegi läbi mitte! Täna siis koolitusele ökukatega ja laupäeval maale õppima: ) Tundub chill enough. Järgmine neljapäev juba Kreekasse.

Ja väljas, akna taga on päike.

Do you recall the way I
used to practise what I believed
but now I am falling down
It crept up on me 
while I was sleeping
softly, surprise gravity too a hold of me
I know it´s time to wake up
Cuz it hurts too much to make up
The colors that just make me real
I´M FINALLY FINDING FEELINGS 
THAT REMIND ME OF ME
i´M FINALLY FINDING FEELINGS
THAT REMIND ME OF A GIRL I USED TO BE
I did not like the way you
Pushed yourself on me like
a hurricane that came crashing down
Though I did not stop
The many changes I clocked
I did not have a hold of me
I know it´s time to wake up
Cuz it hurts too much to make up
The colors that just make me real
I know there´ll never be another
One like me
So I won´t be playin´undercover
Cuz now I see
My braces will come off tomorrow

And I´ll be smilin´

Cuz I´ll be me.

avastasin just, et aprill on...

Rääkisime just isaga veidi aega...tema tööst ja asjades ja muidu ja naersimegi ise. Ja siis hakkasingi mõtlema, et aprill on juba. Jaanuarist on juba nii palju möödas. Veider, mäletan viimaste aastate jaanuarikuid, ei tahaks küll. Aga praegu on juba aprill:) Loodan, et seda nüüd ära ei sõnanud!

Ignorantsusest

Kai kirjutas mulle eile hommikul mu FB lausete pärast. Ma vastasin talle ja siis vastas tema mulle. Ja midagi nii rohkem õiget asja ei saakski mulle öelda:)

Mõningad väljavõtted:

Ignorance is bliss. I said it, i stand by it. But ignorance is also ignorance. And it blocks out the wisdom, knowledge and curiosity that makes the world so much rounder. Truth is, I'd trade bliss any day for all the pain and happiness of understanding, experience, not understanding, struggling and fighting of how things are and why. People like you and me suffer from this as much as they thrive from it. So how do we deal with us and the society? All the customs and rules that others seem to to live by unquestioned?

For me, that answer is: Pick you battles.

Fight for it when it's worth it and let it go when it's not. I cannot choose ignorance, but i can choose "let it be". There is a reason why we spend talking through half of the night with some people about god and the world and choose more profane things with others. And that's ok. You can't win every battle, but you always have the (wisdom of) choice. And that can be a much greater gift than unconditional bliss.

--

Yes, people are just F***ING STUPID sometimes ;)

--

I of course cannot tell you a recipe for how to deal with it but my thoughts are as follows: Ignorance is the easy way out. Or at least so it seems. But it wouldn't make you happy since you are way past unconditional surrender to mindless simplicity. Instead, embrace the joy and happiness you can get from understanding the world, wanting to know how it works and the endless curiosity. Pick the battles you really care about and fight them with a smile. Never forget how much more alive you are with every step you take, how much you can grow and how much more you can experience. And the happiness that you will get from that is f***ing contagious. ;)

This does not lead to bliss (and ignorance) but to enlightenment.

And that's how you can hold an angry rant with a smile on your face. Not a smile of cynicism but a smile of possibilities.

Tagasi koju

Nii, nüüd see siis juhtub. Asjad on pakitud ja meel pole veel valmis aga koju ma tulen. Seiklus saab see olema. Sõidan täna kell 16. 30 Viini Iulia juurde. Homme läheb lennuk kell 14.25 ja Riias olen ma 17.25 ja buss läheb Riia lennujaama eest kell 18.20. Loodame kõik, et lennuk ei jää hiljaks ja ma saan ilusasti bussi peale, sest kui ma jään bussist maha on järgnev olukord: Mul pole SIM - kaarti, mille roaming töötaks, seega olen ma täiesti üksi Riias. Lisaks pole mul arvel piisavalt raha, et teist bussipiletit osta ja niikuinii peaksin ma ööseks siis Riiga jääma, sest see on viimane buss, ja ma ei tea, kas ma sellega nõus olen. Riia kesklinnast lähevad mõned bussid ka 9 paiku Tallinnasse. Igatahes, loodame, et kõik läheb plaanipäraselt ja kui ei siis väike seiklus kulub alati ära ja ma luban ettevaatlik olla ja üritan teha nii, et vähemalt üks inimene teab kus ja kellega ma parajasti ikka olen!

Näeme juba Eestis!

The fortress of determination

As my dreams at night are starting to make me happy,

As they are full of life and sappy

Still I wonder as I see

Through the changes in me

Where is the place for you

I guess I should give a clue

But as it is up to you and not me

You´ll be where you deserve to be

No more clues, chances or remorse

With every step- you endorse.

I have desided.

Noh, Mis Teie arvate?

What is your Temperament?

Astrid took the "What is your Temperament?" quiz and the result is Sanguine.

You sparkle. There is something about you that is lovable and fun. You are a people-person and people are drawn to you. You are lighthearted and carefree. You are a born storyteller, everyone knows that when you start a conversation with "You'll never guess what happened..." they are in for a good story. You have a good sense of humour and a memory for colour. You feel things passionately and you are very demonstrative of your feelings. You have a natural curiosity and a wide-eyed innocence that is charming. You have a changeable disposition but a sincere heart. Whatever is happening now is the most important thing and whoever is in the room is your favourite person - and you are theirs. Extrovert: The People Person.

Facebook arvab nii :D

17 sammu lähemale minuni.

Mul oli facebookis selline küsimustik üleval:) Ja kolm inimest, kes mind kõige rohke tunnevad said maksimumiks kõik 64% seega jah, võib- olla ma siis ei tunne ka ise-end nii hästi :D Et isegi ntx 52% on selle kõrval väga hea saavutus:) Igatahes , õiged vastused ja kommentaarid.

How well do you know the real Astrid?

Question 1

The most important person in my life?

A. Me

B. My mother

C. My sister Helina

D. All are equal

Question 2

What would a choose as a gift for myself?

A. new laptop

B. surprise birthday party

C. a gettaway trip with my closest friends

D. a self- made cake

Question 3

What is my favorite place in the world?

A. A rowan tree on top of the hill at home

B. My bed in my room

C. my yellow apartment in Tartu

D. Kure 2 Tartu Estonia

Question 4

What is the thing that would hurt me the most?

A. broken promises from a friend

B. a friend who said he/she didn´t lie but lied

C. a friend forgetting to meet me

D. a friend forgetting my birthday

Sellele pakkusid väga paljud vastuseks A-d. Nooh, sõber, kes oma lubadusi ei täida, lihtsalt ei hooli. Sõber, kes valetab, ei austa. Ma suudan enam- vähem hakkama saada, kui minust ei hoolita, aga see oleks liiga valus, kui ma pole väärt austust. Ma tahan teada.

Question 5

Who is/has been the most important animal in my life?

A. neighbours dog Siis

B. my cat Miki

C. my dog Pennu

D. my sistes cat Osama (Kidi)

Siisi oli pikka pikka aega lapsepõlves mu ainuke ja parim sõber. Tänu temale sain ma ka tugeva käe ja saavutasin edu palliviskes:D Ma armastasin seda koera, sest tema armastas ja eelistas mind tihti kõigile teistele ja ta oli minu kõrval, alati kui ma väljas olin. Gümnaasiumis oli ka selline olukord , kus ma olin voodis ja kuulsin , et ta kakleb teise emakoeraga jälle- võimuvõitlus. Ja ta oli juba vana ja mind tabas hirm. Jooksin öösärgis välja ja kukkusin naabrite maja ees asfaldil veel, kuid tõusin püsti ja jooksin edasi. Ja nähes neid kaklemas haarasin esimese ettejuhtuva toika ja üritasin teist emast eemale tõrjuda ja siis tuli naabrite isane koer mulle selle peale kallale. Näksas natukene mind jalast. Olin täiesti shokis. Minu vigastused polnud hullud ja ka Siisi omad mitte. Aga oleksin tema heaks nii palju rohkem teinud. Igatsen teda kohutavalt. Ta on kõige kallim, mis ma elus kaotanud olen. Aga ma armastan oma Pennut ja Mikit ka, loomulikult: ) Ja Kidi, Kidi oleks pidanud olema minu kass. Ma otsustasin , et ma hakkan teda armastama ja mina tõin ta koju ja harjutasin ta inimestega , kannatlikult iga päev, kuni ta lihtsalt ära võeti : )

Question 6

The most hardest thing in last 2 years was?

A. breaking up with my boyfriend

B. not talking to my best friend Kärt for a year

C. losing my job

D. a death of a loved one

Question 7

What is the music for my heart?

A. Westlife

B. Celine Dion

C. Frou Frou

D. Enrique Iglesias

Question 8

Wat is the music for my soul?

A. Westlife

B. Dream Theater

C. Frou Frou

D. Michael Jackson

Question 9

What animal I think I am/ would want to be ?

A. squirrel

B. lioness

C. cat

D. panter

Question 10

What is my biggest dream?

A. to get a lovely husband and a home

B. to be successful

C. to be famous

D. to save a life

Question 11

What is my favourite picture editing programm?

A. photoshop

B. gimpshop

C. picasa

D. i have none

Question 12

How many blogs I have?

A. 1

B. 2

C. 3

D. none

Question 13

Who is my favourite cherry-wine person?

A. Monika

B. Carita

C. Helina

D. Algis

Question 14

Who is my favourite poet?

A. Doris Kareva

B. Sandor Petöfi

C. Juhan Liiv Priidu Beier

D. luuletused?

Vabadus, armastus need on mu igatsus

Annaks ma elu Sinu eest armastus

Ohverdaks armu, ma Sinu eest vabadus.

(Seda luuletust tean ma kolmes keeles, ka originaalis ja mul on tema luuleraamatud, ka ungarikeelne üks; ja 4 klassi lugesin ma tema luuletust Kodumaad luulevõistlusel ja võitsin:) Kodumaa, Vabadus, armastus ja Doonau Kaldal on mu lemmikud)

Question 15

Do I love my work?

A. jes

B. no

C. sometimes

D. not for long:P

Question 16

My favourite color is ?

A. pink

B. black

C. yellow

D. blue

Question 17

The word I use really often lately is?

A. ahv

B. justament

C. bläää

D. kurjam

No see on arvatavasti kõige vaieldavam :D Vaatasin järele ja viimasel ajal ntx Monikaga on küll justament! rohkem olnud , aga carita ja helinaga on tõesti võib-olla ahv või blää. Aga ma ise tunnen, et kasutan seda sõna viimasel ajal aina tihedamini: )